ruined plans

I'm looking in a reflection of darkness
I see my time over and done
just an incident of happenstance
a twisted ankle, an aching bone.

I've worked so hard
and achieved so much
I'm gonna lose all i had
it hurts to touch.

it's not just my ankle
my soul is injured as well
I got myself in this pickle
i'll get myself out of hell.

nothing will stop me
I'll pick myself up
misfortune thinks he can touch me
he's full of crap.

I'm a trooper and I will survive
I'll leap through fire to achieve my dreams
I'll smile and give them a high five
my heart is strong and my face beams.

 

I found this online as fan art ("sorrow's true love" by jeni). It's from the book series "wildwood" by juliet marillier. I've read the two books and they are extremely good and to my taste. They are whimsical fairytales with suspense, romance, danger etc. The author is very well informed and does her research. I suggest reading these. I just had to post this picture because the scenery is just how I imagined it in the book! The first book is called, "Wildwood Dancing" and the second, "Cybele's Secret" I highly recomend reading them, I couldn't put them down.

little ugly girl

the little ugly girl doesn't know
if she can trust this feeling
or if she should show
that her heart is bleeding

she knows she's not pretty
she knows he's just a guy
but is it just friendly?
or do his feelings fly?

she knows he could't love her
and that to believe would be to die
but can she trust herself and refer
to love's never ending cry?

everytime she says goodbye
she cries a little inside
she knows she shouldn't try
and that she should just hide

just one of those days

Just one of those days
only a rut I'm in
that's all my mouth says
there's more underneath my skin.

I can't talk to people
my head won't let me
my body is careful
but my soul longs to be free.

I would fly away
if this shell would let me
I would dance on clouds
but I am not free.

Today I am dead
probably tomorrow too
I want out of this head
I want to be true.

If the world were perfect
people would see
they would respect
the real me.

The person who flies
who has grown wings
not the person that lies
hear this, it rings.

happy new year's!

That we may never forget the moments,


that we learn from our mistakes,



and that we cherish the friends that we shared them with!



Please raise a glass of something or other and toast to the the new year!

Guardian Angel

This flame that burns so bright
my candle in this dark, dark night

Please stay with me
please guide me

Never leave my side oh, friend
my constant needs attend

You gutter and you spit
I cry, for you're not lit.

change

the sky is falling.




my heart is pounding.




and i am running




away from this!



i can't breathe




i'm smothering



the walls are closing in around me




it won't go away.